A Guy or A Girl?

I sometimes wonder - what if I were a guy? This is a very common thought. You may have thought about it too, at some point - I mean the opposite of what you currently are:-)

It happens to me in certain social settings - a get-together, a party or a casual water-cooler banter. I want to say something that would so totally be me - a very sincere remark, a compliment, an urge to slap their shoulder, a comment or something so trivial and so natural. It may be the most appropriate reaction in that situation even - I do it at times, but I hold myself back.

Why? Because, there are some gestures that may not be gender appropriate or be acceptable given my or the opposite person's parameters!

I also see that some of the comments I make or some of the thoughts I express may have had a different impact if I were a guy. The opposite may also be true. I would like to think of it that way too!

And not just the gender - there are so many parameters that weigh the way your ideas/thoughts are received too. People do attach a lot of "other" factors or rather "read-into" your actions and comments/ideas sometimes missing out the whole point and failing to take it face value!

And I on my part feel burdened! Did I hear you say I'm shy? Maybe a little in some cases - but not shy to express my feelings and ideas, but way too aware of the before and after, the impact, the various other factors, what-if analysis, and the whole picture kind of shy...I admit.

Now does this border on the line of overly caring for the "other" factors? Maybe. Heavily depends on how you view it. I care - a lot for people. And hence stems the action of caring for their sentiments.

Need to learn to ignore? Maybe needed ..
A possibility? Trying ..
Will happen? Possible ..
When? Happens when it happens :-)

It is far fetched to imagine that you can let go and be yourself under all circumstances. There is a reality check that exists - visible or invisible.

And, it would be wonderful to push this barrier to a a newer limit and be yourself ...express very honest opinions, true feelings, thoughts in an unadulterated way and be YOU ...your very own true self!

Another road into self-growing....

Have a great one and here's the song for this weekend - I love this song!!! almost in the spirit of what I wrote above:-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4SDolTyAbes&feature=related