My mom's voice over the phone "Please pick a Muhurtham that is good for your Nakshatram (star sign)...remember to tell the Pujari (priest) to...."
A hundred phone calls and a million instructions later, I set the date to move to the new place.
My friends have been teasing me about how miserable I have been to move away from my cozy little old home.I have been having sleepless nights and wake up at 4:00 AM and sit there all by myself. It is so painful to move away from here...it is not just a house, but has been a home with a zillion memories, all of which I have tightly wrapped in my fists and have shut them tight lest they escape...
Trips to the Indian grocery store, to the American grocery stores - collecting fruits, flowers and a ton of other Indian Pooja specific tid-bits, rendered me exhausted with a terrible back ache and unable to even stand up just before the day of the pooja!
The evening before, I did all that was expected of me...string the flowers, set up everything, soak the right ingredients to make the Prasadam (offering to God) the next day etc. etc. And that night - very late in the night something happened that changed the entire plan.
Mother nature had her own way of showing me how minuscule we were in the entire bigger game plan! A simple change at one point made the entire thing collapse like a deck of cards, pieces in a game of Dominoes.
Over and out- that's it! The whole thing changed. It was almost as if my un-willingness to let go of this home was turning to a reality.
Anyway, I geared up again the next week and this time around did what my instinct told me to do. It became a simple task of signifying an event that would mark a change, a happening and a move! It turned into a moment where positive thoughts pervaded, a moment where beautiful memories presented me reasons to smile about...all of this was no where on the plan.
And not ruled by the stars!
And when those stars align the next time, I know deep in my heart that they will bring with them a million reasons that will make me want to smile, a zillion reasons that will make me want to live all over again...and an infinite other reasons that will help me make someone other than me happy! Selflessly happy!
Till then I'll gaze at those twinkling, celestial objects...night after night...
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