Turn Around

There's so much to write - but, I'm trying to pick a topic...it's one of those days when I'm trying to overcome my anger, my urge to do so many things.

But no - I have tasted the power of controlling those thoughts and emotions - so I tell myself that I have to try them all out and turn around at this point...

Then I wonder - is it really possible to change one's innate nature totally? The basic instinct totally? I doubt it. It is not about masking those raw emotions with anything, but it maybe about finding an alternative energy to balance them out.

How can you gauge the intensity of those when every time they hit you, they are all new and have never occurred before? What happens to the theory of handling them and balancing them out? Shouldn't everything be negated with an equal and opposite force?

Or maybe one learns to build that intelligence into self to build it better and stronger for the next time it occurs...maybe that's what learning is all about...who knows.