The best time of my every day is when I spend those fifteen precious moments with my little one - she narrates everything that happens at her school ane me mine - trading at it's best :-)
Endless chatter about..
She was my friend today.. she wasn't my best friend today..You know I did this at school, and you know my drawing was the best...my teacher said I was eligible for the fun fast fast Math game ...and whatever else that has picked the little brain and touched the little heart!
Some days it is "Mumma, I missed you so much...the tears almost came mumma, but I didn't cry because I'm a BIG girl now...". She makes me want to cry at those moments :-)
I share my day with her too - what hurt me, what made me happy in simplified way she seems to understand - some thoughts and emotions escape her, but she nods her head as if she understands every bit of it! On some days when I've had it rough, she is usually silent and at the end always assures me that she is my best friend :-) That is her way of saying that she will always stand by me...no mater what the world says or no matter when my very own fail to...
All this happens with her little legs swung over me, and her head cradled in my arms. Those tiny little hands trying to hold me tighter as sleep threatens to engulf her...
Well, tonight was one of those days - Mumma this, and mumma that...and suddenly out of the blue, she asks me - "Mumma, what does Permanent mean?" I try and explain to her that it is forever. After a moment, she says "So, a permanent marker can also be called a FOREVER marker". I said maybe - but it did make me smile :-)
She then says "Mumma, what does miserable mean?" I again explain to her - it means being sad and unhappy. Silence. She says " I don't like anyone being miserable."
It again made me smile - Genes I thought! I don't like anyone being sad either baby I thought.
She happily slid into innocent sleep, leaving me thinking...
Just these two words coming together could lead an individual being unhappy...chasing a thought, a person, a relationship...mother, father, friend, children and whatever else...a anything where we seek "permanence" can always lead us to being "miserable", as there is no such thing in this universe. The more we try to hold it, the more it escapes...
This is the truth and the sooner we accept it, the more liberated we are! The more our scriptures, our philosophy, our religion and everything pushes us towards this detachment, the more we run the other way I guess....we humans....we love to always learn it the hard way!
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I think that when it comes to "grand narrative" type lessons that we learn, they are abstractions. Our connection or strength of feeling toward an abstraction is much weaker than for a real specific instance of that abstraction. So indeed we have to learn lessons in a "hard" manner. However, the more we invest in understanding and assimilating abstractions, the softer the individual instantial lessons..
Thank you for stopping by and sharing your thoughts Unawoken!
Unawoken, I was thinking a little 'bout what you said - I don't completely agree to the statement that abstractions are necessariy derived through an effort on the individual's part - they are always there at every occurence and the onus lies with the individual to register it or not. I think it is that willingness to register such an abstraction is what transcends to knowledge, and the act of registering to learning.
Hence will follow our weak attraction to abstraction itself in line with the above rules of the game.
I agree on the last point about a good investment on the assimilation - does that qualify for Once bitten twice shy or is that only a fool repeats the same mistake twice - or maybe not?
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